Harnessing the power of the Taurus full moon, years of prayers and intention setting have manifested my flame of passion and creative expression. I intend to use the FULL POWER of this fire moving forward and have already fallen to the floor in gratitude. The humans that are surrounding me now, some new and some that remain at my side through long-term ties of true family, are about to greatly benefit and enjoy their relationships with me on an unprecedented level. I am so glad I took the necessary time and steps in my isolation to get to this present moment... I am repaired, and more than that enhanced.
I have been heartbroken, betrayed, sick, slandered, encountered deaths, and completely shattered down to nothing in the past several months... but today, today I run with the wolves, and tonight I fly with the owls because there is no stopping the energy I have just set in motion. I absorb and retain this flame, this power, this long lost gift that was so heinously stripped from me in my past - NO MORE!
There is no time or will for sleep this day, there is only room for enhanced manifestation. Yesterday I had thoughts of loosing complete faith in ever achieving this state again, but I REFUSED to speak it into existence! I also recently decided that no matter what happens to me and how bad things get or make me feel, that I WILL NOT EVER GIVE UP!.. which prompted me to create my first meme ever several weeks ago:
What I have discovered is that my ability to still put energy and intention into that which matters most to me in the midst of the greatest hardships of my life (and retaining my appreciation for), was the very thing that eventually propelled me to this moment, and re-granted me the divine gift I need - which is nothing more or less than realizing and taking back the full force of my power... for those of you that are privy to what I have been dealing with on any level, these recent posts from the past several weeks may surprise you to see...
I am not saying I do not have grudges of injustices to confront in my future created by my past, but since I am only here now these concepts are irrelevant... and Gaias got my back... I truly feel sorry for those that are about to get the distorted energy they put on me returned to them, and feel blessed to be able to give all the positvity I have to offer to those that have given such to me when I REALLY needed it. If you are one of the latter it is up to you to decide if you want to receive these blessings in store for you, the former have no choice as they created this reality for themselves, as did we all... I just choose to not hold that energy for them any longer, its not meant for me, learn your lessons for a change.... While the quality of your love does determine the quality of your life, so does the quality of your honor and respect for your fellow man and planet. If your actions are not in the best interest of all... then your actions are NOT of spirit... food for thought (I learned this lesson the hard way twice in two distinct fashions).
This now hangs above the door to our room until I create a proper artistic banner on fabric. I hung it while performing an energy clearing of our space which exited anything not serving my highest good, and invites in only spirits and angels of purity, love, honor, healing, respect, and protection.
@alchemage, @kennyskitchen. @riverflows, @trucklife-family, @jonyoudyer, @eco-alex, @sukhasanasister - I love you and appriciate you all very much (obviously not just you guys), am honored by your friendship, and am sorry if anything I have been going through has affected you negatively on any level... everything I went through was necessary for me to get here... Thank you, seriously, and I hope each of you reads this post. It is also ok if it doesn't make it to you, because either way it will reach you, even if just subconsciously.
I have more things to improve about myself no doubt, and I am by no means perfect, but I am myself again, and I am actually happy for real. It feels REALLY good... bye bye soul cramp. My past no longer haunts me, I am here to help you brother or sister. In the words of the wise - BLESS UP!.. better yet, BLESS EVERYWHERE! I cannot wait to share with the world what I have in store for it.
Grounding this HARD here, holding onto it with a firm grip. My life depends on it. NOT LOOSING FAITH!
P.S. - My eyes shifted from green to blue... this hasn't happened in almost 10 years. You have to know me REALLY well to know what that means... yea my eyes change color sometimes.